At Last

Its about time for me to update my blog, isnt it? I mean how long has it been since i last blogged? anyway, updates? hmm.. can't think of any right now.. and i don't feel the drive to blog about anything anymore.. too busy? nop. just being lazy.

Well, recently work sucks... most staffs have either quit, been transfered to other outlet or ended their internship. Now im left with new employees. Great. Last week i was in charge of the operation of the store for a night. Out of nowhere, there was a sudden rush of customers coming in. Then suddenly, everything was messed up. Beverage side jammed. Runner side jammed. to make things worse, i went to the runner side unfortunately, she just said that she couldnt deal with the stress any longer. i swear i feel like slapping her or at least cry. How cn u say that? seriously... lucky for me, after some motivation, she manage to pull herself together. phew. and no sooner did we realise that im the only one who had familiarise doing the beverages. at the end of the day, im glad that everyone never gave up.

Selamat Hari Raya!!

A very belated Selamat Hari Raya wish to all muslims out there..i've been busy studying for exams for the past few days that i didnt get a chance to blog.. hehehs.. now exam is over.. Time to enjoy!!! ;p

Anyway here are some random rayer pics... hmm..the bad thing is that i forgot to get a picture of me and my boyfriend. luper nak amek..:( Anyway....here u go...

Sadly.. i only took one photo for 1st day raya..

1st Day Raya

2nd Day Raya

3rd Day Raya

OMGOSHHH!!!

I met a cute cat yesterday.. :D Was walking under my blk, meeting bf.. then there was this small cat. i said "meow" to the cat and wave. I didnt bother to stop walking though. I mean cats usually ignores me..:( But this cat followed me to bf bike... then when i got closer to it, kitty(i decided to name it) approach me expecting me to pat her.. so cuuuuuutttttteeeeeeee.... when i sat on the curb, kitty sat on my lap...:) heehee... so happy felt like bringing it home.

Ouh yeah, the happiness end when i force bf to touch kitty. and when he did, kitty was scared of him. And it was time for us to go..:( hmm... if it wasnt for the fact that my parents do not aloow animals in the house, aku da bwk die balek da. Bf also dont like to have animals in the house.. tht means i cnt have a cat in the house when i marry him:( :(..

On the other hand, i hope bf and family stay strong. I know its hard to go through this especially when she's ur beloved youngest auntie/sibling. But if it God's willing, then we should all pray for her. i may not be very religious, but i do know that Allah is doing what is best for her. Its sad to see the whole family feeling down like that. i dont knw what to do to make bf feel better as well.. i do give alot of encouraging words. I knw it doesnt help much b but i hope u appreciate it bby..:)

Temptation

I would like to have this...

Memoirs

I have exam next week and im blogging right now... haiz... so many distractions...:( i havent even start on 1 yet.. im screwed...:( anyway, just a moment ago, i was enjoying looking at pictures that was taken two or three yrs bck.. i realised that im really missing those moments and those wrong choices i have made alng the way.

This was also when i met my last ex-boyfriend. I should blame him for making all those stupid choices that leads to severe consequences. But to think of it, i didnt regret it after all since it was fun while it lasted. he has a way of making ppl laugh and enjoy being arnd him.. oh well, if it had not been for that, i would have killed him for that mistake he did.. seriously.. but i could't be bothered anyway...

Well here are some of the pictures taken while i was still working at Healthwise Pte. Ltd. :) it seem that i've meet alot of nice and interesting ppl there...

Healthwise

Taken during Su'ud's wedding. The time when all of us are bonded.

After work, that's what they have become.. hahahs.. bunch of funny ppl..

During Syiha brother's wedding
The Phoenix

Ifah...A great friend i've met along the way..:)

Agus... Someone who attracts my attention bck then..:)

Akmal... the younger one.. he never fails to create a "nice" storybout himself..

Aidil.. the womanizer, always changing his interest in a girl every wk.. hahahs..!! i miss him..

Akmal...

Isis: the irritating one.. Irritates me like mad!

Fahmi: the annoying and arrogant one i must say..

Visu.. the cheeky one..:)

Syiha... the crazy one.... i miss her madly..

Ciner... the chinese malay guy.. thats y tak puaser.. hahahs..

Hmmm... the other person that i would give credits to would be faisal...:) He has been a great guy...always been there for me.. helping me out.. entertaining me... Who would have guessed that he was into me.. or maybe i was the blind one.. cos the only one that i see was my ex at that time. Then when faisal let out his feelings for me, it was alrdy too late. he was so sweet.. just to propose to me to be his gf.. he met me under my blk (he lives at simei) with a rose, a pair of earrings and a letter. After finish reading the letter, he explain to me abt everything.. Not only that, he even gave me 2 teddy bears! and a whole box of Hello Panda.. it was really heartbreaking to reject him after all the effort he had put in. But still, how could i accept him when i was alrdy attched to someone else..? Hence the rejection. Still, he gave me the ring that was suppose to be mine when i accept him..hmm... alot more other things that he'd done that would touch any gerl's heart, definitely touched mine but i guess it wasnt meant to be.. Soo i would like to say thanks faisal for the great memories...:)

Suprise!!

Its like my habit to treat bf for dinner each time after getting my pay.. heehee... so what shall i treat him to this time..?? i've few choices in mind... just being fickle right now... well, i knw bf will be reading this... so i shall give no other hint...:)

Anyway, bf had been working very hard.. but the stupid fatpig had always been a pain in the ass.. never being satisfied with his own team.. like as if he could have done their job any better.. whatsup wif that guy... screw him.

Woohhooo!!! im up for another promotion... floor manager...will be wearing tie.. heheh... the thng is im not sure whether i should be happy abt it.. will there be more pressure for me? i really dont knw.. if there is, then i shall not take this rank.. im still schooling and i need to concentrate on my studies badly. we shall see what this promotion will lead to. bf thinks that it is a bad idea though.

What A Day!

Seems like today had been mother and daughters bonding session... heheh..mum took half day off to meet us at geylang serai.. as always, we (sis and myself) were suppose to leave the house by 11 tapi pkul 12 aru kuar rumah... poor mum... anyway, mum called me and said, "meet u girls at TKC.. i will be walking arnd there". wth... TKC=tanjong katong complex.. it took me a moment to figure it out... funny sia... hahahahs...

So anywy, we met her at TKC(heehee) at abt 1pm... she bought baju rayer for ayah and hilmi... same colour... purple-ish pink... hahahs... looks like this yr whole family gonna be in pink for raye :).. thought they would reject the idea.. my dad agreeing to wear pink?? thats one in a billion. hahs. Then, we went to search for mum's baju pulak...

Stop by at this shop known as Nora or something? as always, ppl would ask what is my relations to my mum..Their first guess would be siblings.. -.-' haiyoo.. nonsense only.. anyway,unbelievable lah... my mum is more of a shopaholic than her two daughters.. she tried on like about 6/7 different clothes.. and she bought 4 of them!! sampai 4 skali... haiyoo... i've nvr done that before. hehehs.. but cant blame her since all looked great on her. though some the sizes wasnt consistent.. some she had to get S, some M... hmmm watever...

My sis was searching for her baju rayer in red. we end up buying her baju at the shop right next to Nora's.. i didnt expect to get one for myself but since mum wanna pay half the price.. why waste this once in a lifetime chance..?? right..?? :D thereafter, we followed mum to buy carpets... i was lucky that we took cab home... save the the embarassement of carrying the carpet in the train all the way back home. i was alrdy struggling badly enough..

To top it off, it was a good and very tiring day. bought deng deng and banana rose syrup... delicious.. :) now i cant wait to meet bf later.... heehee... bought for him pink hp casing... will force him to use it..;) if he love me, he will.

Realisation

Hmph! Had a stupid fight with bf ystdy... :( and still he brought me to Earle Swensen for dinner. how sweet is that.. how horrible am i? i should treat him better.. he'd done so much for me. but most of the time, i only managed to make him mad. on top of that, i dont even have the guts to apologise. He must be suffering being with an idoitic gerl like myself.

180910

Hmm... its has been quite an exciting journey for us for the past 1 year 4 months.. im happy to have gone this far with you syg.. hee.. Weell..we spend the day breaking fast at marina square.. went to manhattan fish market.. i should have shared the platter for two... so stupid of me to suggest ordering individual dish..:( end up mine suck big time!.. hmmph! I think i ordered salmon? it was terlalu masak sngt.. my mum's fish dish tasted so much better...

See... Mine didnt even look appetizing...

While his...
LOOK AND TASTED AWESOME!!



My Bandong Freeze

And our delicious mudpie...

urrghhh!!

So angry!!! i accidentally pour longan drink on my shirt..:( so wet... hmph!

Baby said that i rarely post our pic... hahahs... the fact is im damn lazy to bluetooth the pics frm my phone... it will take a freaking long time to transfer... but since bby da majok... i will do anything to make him happy again.. even if it takes hours to bluetooth pics to my lappy... ;) *gatal* hehehs..

He love to take stuuupppiiiddd pics... but its cute...:)

Wishes. Wishes.

Bbby.... Happyy 1 yr 2 mnths syg... muacks.. i lurve you b...loving you more every single day.. :) Dont be angry with me...:( can? you mean so much to me... U ARE SOMETHING THAT I WILL CHERISH WITH ALL MY HEART...

Get up and GO!

Just when i was about to get happy with life due to work promotion and school holiday, the stuupppiidd taxi driver has to ruin it all..... hahahs... sound so dramatic... still... the accident causes alot of pain and suffering...i didnt really knw how it happen.. i was pretty confident that boyf could brake on time... sadly, the next thing i knew was that i was on the road.. i might have even kiss the road...i think what really happened was.... after the light impact... i flew forward..landed on the road..palm hit the ground 1st(habit).. so that causes the bruises and abberations on my palm.. then my hands gave in... hence, my chin hit the road.. i assume that's how i got a small cut on my chin and swollen upper lips. the weird thing was that i got bruises on both shoulders... and right hips swelling... dunno lah how i fall..Lucky bf injury not serious..

Had 7 days mc.. didnt helped much since my hip is still swollen up till now.. will go for check up tmr... hope everything is fine..:( i cant deny that its really scary... there might be internal injury siak... urghh!! lets sue that stuppid taxi driver....

Anyway, back to work now since holiday have started. Ouh yeah, i've been promoted! hehehs... im now the assist floor supervisor... watever it is... My pay only increase by $0.50/hour... and get full staff tips which might not be much...alahai... cheapskate tol...nvm lah.. at least im not wearing the uniform now..:)

Moving on... i miss yan so much..:( w/o his bike made it hard for us to meet... but he was sweet enough to travel all the way to woodlands just to sent me to werk...:) lurve you hunney... hope he will get his bike tmr..susah tau nak balek mlm lau tkde motor... but im still having slight phobia about riding bikes... my imagination start to run wild siol... hmm... dont think too much... everything will be fine hanim...

Felt great to meet up with feza last week..went to watch movie...really appreciate her accompanying me to remove the stitches.. heehee... and managed to hang out with SP friends at Keppel Bay just now... laughed quite alot... them and their nonsense.. it was fun though... to once awhile just chill and relax... we shall do it again..

that's all for now... till then, hope to receive good news from the doc tmr... Chao.

The next post

My sis actually cleaned our whole room yesterday!! wats up with that? this rarely happens ouhkae.. like once in a zillion years! hahahs! anyway, glad that my room is squeaky clean right now.. :)

I think my last update was like few weeks back? 13 May i tink.. and it wasnt even a proper one. was i that exhausted.. not sure myself.. myb i just cant be bothered. I spent the whole month working, schooling and meeting up bf. I didnt meet him ystrday. and im not meeting him today. i miss him terribly... he asked me to quit my job... but i need the money!

On the other hand, we r done with phase one presentation for fyp.. There's only 3 of us during the presentaton since the other two unable to make it. i really respect joseph. He was the only one to do Q n A. and every other group kept on shooting him with never ending qns. Well at least we did better than the first group..:)

Unavoidable

Fuck! why is it so easy for me to get angry this few days?? urgh! fucking irritating.

Exhausted

After spending the whole week at school, work and town, im glad to be at home now.. relaxing my body and mind :). It feels awesome. hahahs. I'm thinking about quiting my job. i dont like even a thing abt my job (*note: the pay suck as well). But it has given me openings for new jobs.
e.g. joining the cabin crew for Silkair and working at Hyatt Hotel. Hmm.. myb i should stay around longer. Who knows i might be in for more attractive jobs. ;) And i receive cakes from customers!!! So far i've received two. Delicious especially the 2nd one ah.. and it was extra tasty due to the fact that its FOC mah. huahaha..

Yesterday, i manage to catch a movie with bf after work. planned to watch Iron Man 2 that's showing at The Cathay, 12.10am. By the time we reached there(11.30), it was alrdy sold out. Therefore, the next timing is at 1.30am n addition to that, our seats were at the 4th row from the front! hmmph! On the other hand, it was all worth it. The show was kickass awesome lah! Alot of theory but worth Yan's money.. huhu.

Tmr would be nana's bdae. i bought her a set of pjyamas. very cute! the stupid thing was i bought it last month and i cant wait till tmr that i gave her the present like few weeks ago. wth hanim! hahahs. nvm at least this tuesday im treating her dinner.:) im so goin to enjoy it. well she will be more happy than me lah. free lah kan!

Things to look forward to for next week: work, nana's bdae, school, FYP, projects and mkn2.

Facing the world

Hmmm...i have no idea how to describe my life. im wishing to end school life right now. It bores me to death. yeah education is important, that's right. But i just cant stand to wait for 3 hours to attend for the next lesson. Its realllllyyy draggy. it makes me feel very sleepy. that when i reached home at 8, i could sleep straight away and only to wake up next morning to get ready for school..thats how shagged i am.

It has been like a month or something since i last called feza. i miss talking to her. but i was nt able to call her for the pass few weeks. reason being, i know that she's always busy during daytime. n during night time, bf would always want to meet me, hence i will be back home late at about 11 plus near 12. and by that time i will be very shagged and i need a good rest since im schooling the next day. AND LESSON STARTS AT 8!!!!!!!!!!!! so im hoping to call her tody.. lets hope and pray for the best.

Hmm and now moving on... about FYP. there's nothing to get worried about my grp, they have great intelligence. tapi kdg2 drg bbl ciner lah pulak. siak btol. sabar je lah.. just focus on our project and make the best out of it. woohoo..:) They are aiming for A...! i would be more than happy to help them in any way.

This Is For YOU...

For You Baby

I love the way you care for me
I love the way you make me feel safe, when wrapped in your arms
I love the way you protect me
I love the way you’ll always be there for me
So many things I love about you, it’s hard to name them all

I love the way you talk to me
I love the way you kiss me
I love the way you look at me

I love your eyes
I love your smile
I love your voice
I love everything about you

However...,

I can’t promise you the world
I can’t promise you the sky
I can’t promise you that we will never fight
I can’t promise you that I will never cry

But one thing for sure
I promise you that I will always be true to you
And baby I promise that I will always love you
more than anything with all my heart,
no matter what happens or what we go through,
baby I'll love you until the end of time!
Ill be your guardian angel
That’s my promise to you!!

It has been one year now
I feel that we've grown stronger
and we'll keep growing stronger with each passing day.
My one and only wish is to be the perfect one for you.
The Best that anyone could ever be for you.

At Last

It feels like it has been months since i last updated my blog.. Attachment really beats me to death. Im glad that its now OVER!! but i miss lah all the aunty there.. hmm.. hahahs.. anyway, this really suck. Why? Because.....

Today : end my attchment
Tomorrow : holiday
Monday : its time for school

Where's our freaking rest period siak. bacen.

On the other hand, in 10 mins time, the clock will strike 12 initiating the start of 18th April 2010. Woohhoo.. 1 year bby! Happy Anniversary honey! ouhkae lah... its only one year but okae lah tu hor. ***Its a happy happy happy happy happy happy day***heeheez. hanim crazy alrdy lah..

MISS

It seems like it was only yesterday that i just start my attachment. in a blink of an eye, it is alrdy my 2nd last week of attachment. Im sssoooo gonna miss my colleagues both at marina square and jurong point. For those who made my life miserable : "so long suckers"... hmm.. the end of attchment means the start of year 3. No holidays to enjoy now. FYP is right ahead. Timetable is okay this time round. nothing to complain about.

Nothing

I am craving for cupcakes..

Hey bby.

Actions are stronger than words, most said. But my actions doesnt really reflect anything much for you kan? Sorry b. =(

Oh Gosh.

Received a message from Daryl on the 18th of March (off day) saying, "roy told me that you will be transfered to Marina square starting from 22nd march." it took me a few minutes to take it in. now i wish that i've never complained for being posted at jurong point. heard that the outlet at Marina Square is damn boring. like no one goes there to shop. *MY REACTION*: im hoping for this attachment programme to end. NOW.

Dedicated to you.

Friend.

You're a true friend,

that i want you to know,

Our love for each other

has helped us to grow.

We've been through some tough times,

but we've made it through.

The only one i've ever trusted was you.

You helped me through anger,

you've chased away fears.

You held me through sadness,

and kissed away tears.

You stayed by my side

when the world turned away.

You helped me see joy

when the skies are all gray.

You were the rainbow,

at the end of the storm.

You help me be different

when i shouldnt conform.

You held my hand

when you knew we would fall.

Every heartache

you saw me through it all.

Im not sure

Im always the best friend to you

i know im not perfect

but this much is true.

When life get you down,

when there's nowhere to turn,

i'll help you through and

i'll share your concern.

I'll try my best to return every favour

when you sure that you'll drown

then i'll be your lifesaver

even if we both go down.

Whether we sink or swim

doesnt matter at all,

just know that i'll be there

whenever you call.

There's one thing i promise,

of this im sure.

When the time comes

that we're put to our rest,

Be sure that you know that,

My Friend, You are the Best.

Eventhough the poem was not written by me, its one of the best to express my feelings. Its really sad to know that im drifting apart with my best friend. well, we do meet like once a month. but once a month?? its kind of pathetic sey =( i miss the old days. we would chat like no one else's business. we would be in our own world. heheh. i really miss that. and having attachment has not helped much since i have to work by shifts. and off day is the only day that im able to have proper rest. im praying that it would be different after graduating. SERIOUSLY. i still love my best friend. No one could ever replace her.

My life this days

My whole body is aching right now. Standing up for the whole day at work really sucks. and just to entertain myself, i would keep on folding the clothes on the same wagon. eventhough customer only messed up one set of pyjamas, tu pun aku nak lipat balik. thats how boring life is. i prefer standing at the cashier. But too many things to remember. so many cards. so many promotions. so many vouchers. AND SO MANY KIASU CUSTOMERS. they are willing to wait to pay lesser. split payment.

and then.. the stupid aunty... really getting on my nerves alrdy. she not even teaching me how to do float out. in fact, when i asked qns ader ke patot die marah aku. n she goes saying, "dont touch! later cannot finish then everybody go home, u stay here alone i tell you. u finish eveything i tell you." and she would repeat it for like 3 times. GOD!!! how irritating can she get. at the end of the day. i learn nothing from her. like how Daryl and Santhosh said it, "NOTHING" (indian accent)

Moving on, friends could be assholes at times. seriously, how can you all be so childish? umur dah braper sial korang. this minute we are friends and the next, we are enemies..against each other like cats and dogs. and when u all lose a friend, all of u didnt even realise that its all because of u guys. the way all of u joked around, the ways u say things and more. biler da hilang kawan, all u guys say was, "takpe arh, die takde kiterorng tak rugi pape per".. wake up ur bloody idea lah. one by one had left u guys. jgn smpi seme orng da against korang baru nak sedar sudah. tu mcm da terlmbt siol. seriously, u guys are fun to hang around with. but with that kind punyer mulut ehk and kalau da tak tau nak jage hati orng. then staying away from u guys really worth a whole lot.

It may seems like i aint got any problem. But the fact is that i really think alot about alot of things that it seems hard to put it to words. It my nature to not let all my feelings out. That is how i am.

Hilmi and I.

My beloved brother.

ITP.

Today i've officially start my ITP. the staffs there are friendly jgak... more like too friendly. hahahs. thats a good thing right?! eerrr yeah...Hence, i will suffer for 6 wks. haiz.. first day alrdy kena station at the cashier counter. haiyoo. got nets, visa, mastercard, value-plus. must sign somemore lah... I just need to do my best then.. ;) lets hope they send me to orchard so i can see santhosh n falisha. n by any chance, to meet aaron at PS.

I reallli dont want to be attached to the stupid aunty again... argh!!! fuck her upside down.. Because of u i did a lot of mistakes damn it.

For YOU.